Welcome,
My name is Cristina Gherghel.
I am an independent researcher and author, but first and
foremost, I am a cartographer of uncharted cognitive territory. My work is born
from a quarter-century forced inquest into a single, catastrophic question:
What happens when the mind lacks the fundamental tools to process agony?
Forced to become a scholar of my own suffering, my research
dismantles the prevailing consensus that a non-simulative mind is protected
from trauma. Instead, I prove that conditions like Panmodal Aphantasia—the
total absence of mental imagery and inner speech—can, in contexts of long-term
abuse, create a state of structural vulnerability. Through longitudinal
auto-phenomenology, I document how trauma, with no representational outlet, is
forced directly into the body, becoming a relentless somatic reality I
term Fleshbacks.
My methodology is a necessary synthesis of architecture
philosophy, clinical neuroscience, and lived neurodivergence. I work at the
brutal intersection where cognitive architecture collides with developmental
environment, mapping the resulting phenomenology with absolute precision.
To this end, I have built new conceptual frameworks to articulate
realities that current clinical language fails to capture. My work introduces
and defines:
- The Aneurothymia Spectrum: A neurotype characterized by the non-instantiation of specific neurocognitive axes.
- Panmodal Aphantasia: The full-spectrum absence of internal sensory representation.
- Paraconsistent Facticity: The state of a lucid mind trapped as a helpless witness to its own body's suffering.
- OMES (Ontological Metabolic Exhaustion Syndrome): The systemic collapse resulting from the unsustainable metabolic cost of sustaining certain cognitive states.
This research is not merely academic; it is a lifeline
thrown back into the darkness I was forced to navigate. It is a demand for a
paradigm shift in how we understand trauma, the mind-body relationship, and the
very nature of healing for those whose internal world is built without
simulation.
Beyond my scholarly work, I extend these inquiries into
literary fiction, crafting narratives where the realities of intergenerational
abuse and anoriginal alterity are not just themes, but the very fabric of the
story.
I am committed to one central goal: forging a lexicon that
finally honors the unmapped formations of human experience, so that no one else
has to suffer in a silence that has no name.
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Dive Deeper into the Research
My full thesis, "Aphantasia Is Not an Advantage in Long-Term Abuse: On the Trauma of Fleshbacks and the Myth of Coping and Defense Mechanisms," is available to read for free on Zenodo. It presents the complete argument, evidence, and theoretical framework.https://doi.org/10.5281/zenodo.17692334
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